I’m having roommate problems. We’re complete opposites, like black and white, apples and oranges, cats and dogs type of opposites. He stays up all night and sleeps all day, whereas I go to sleep at night and am awake during the day. He misses class and then walks around annoyed as if I or someone else is supposed to fix things for him or something. He has a girlfriend (also our neighbor) who he always has to have over in our room from the moment he gets out of class to the moment where she literally has to escape the room late at night, and he spends most of his time just staring at her or making out…in front of me. He’s a huge smoker and has recently decided to start smoking in our room, and I personally do not like the smell of smoke, nonetheless when it gets on my things and I start smelling like it. He talks crap about me behind my back to my friends and peers, but when he talks to my face he acts as if everything is alright. The worst part is that I’ve talked to him about all of this, and he keeps doing more stuff! It’s like once one problem has been ruled out, he takes it upon himself to create another issue! And, it’s not like we’re on bad terms or anything, it’s just that lately all of the small annoying things he does are starting to get extremely annoying. It’s getting old.

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Ohh, my city by the bay. San Francisco, take me away.

Ohh, I really love clothes. They’re the first thing people see about you; so, to me, it’s like my first opportunity to introduce myself to someone. If I’m looking snazzy, then hopefully that will serve as a catalyst to making a good first impression.

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One of my closest friends just told me that tomorrow she is leaving our university for a while, moving back to Japan, and possibly never coming back. To say the least, it has been quite a bittersweet day. I feel like we’re going to be torn apart or never talk again, but at the same time I completely understand her reasons for returning home. Ehh, I don’t know what to think of this situation right now, other than it is “bittersweet”.

One of my favorite things to do is to find a high up place, like a rooftop or hill, and stare out over a city. Watching life continually move while I attempt to escape it’s hold on me is somehow calming. It is a great way to unwind, think things through, and rediscover myself and my thoughts.

Ehh, I miss my city by the bay. I crave San Francisco.

I wish I had a male role model in my life. I don’t necessarily understand why, but I have always bonded much more easily with girls than with guys. It was easy to have all female friends when I was younger, but as I got older, things got a little tricky. I had nobody to talk to in order to get a male perspective on subjects like sexuality, relationships, and life in general. To this day, I still have nobody to turn to in order to get the advice and guidance that I crave. Some days I feel so alone and awkward when I am just surrounded by girls. It would be nice to have male role model in my life. I’m going to make a new goal, right now, to become friends with more guys because, honestly, it gets old being the only one in the room with a penis everyday all day.

I love my body and appearance in pictures. But, when I think of myself and imagine what I look like and how others see me, all I can see is a skinny kid who nobody could ever find attractive. It is a terrible paradox.

Not only is this a great photo in terms of photography, but it is also a very sexy one. I want this, badly. One day, hopefully. 

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”

- Mark Twain